Attitudes of Waiting

I like to choose a focus for my spiritual growth during Advent. This year I was drawn to a post from the Henri Nouwen Society, titled “The Attitude of Waiting”.

As the words entered into my imagination and spirit, I was immersed in a reflection on the gifts of waiting that have occurred in my life’s journey.

A quote from the Henri Nouwen reflection helped me to focus. “But Jesus says, you must stand ready, stand awake, stay tuned to the word of God …, and be able to stand confidently in the presence of God together in community.

In this season of Advent, we hear a lot about waiting. All of Israel was waiting. The virgin Mary was waiting. Joseph was waiting. Each had their own attitude within their time of waiting.

I took some time to reflect on this and to remember the times and experiences of waiting in my own life. Even within myself there were unique attitudes associated with each experience of waiting.

Two life experiences come to my mind. The first was the waiting for each of my children to be born. It was a time filled with attitudes of expectation, hope and joy.

The second was quite different. I recall the long hours of sitting by my dying wife, Carolyn. I did some sitting and some kneeling. Many thoughts and feelings were coursing through my head and heart. I felt helpless; not even knowing how to pray. I had a deep sense of caring for her. I wanted to comfort her, but I could not find words easily. I think my attitude was one of hope, hope for her to be released from her pain.

In my Advent journey this year, I have a seeker’s attitude, one that searches for the truth and wisdom. I want to know more fully this Divine Presence who call me Beloved.

What are the attitudes that arise in you during this Advent season?